Wow. It's been over a month since I last put a blog in this thing. It's a new year so I need a new format, hence the new MySpace page. A lot has occured, and it's very interesting to see what's going to happen next. I'm hesistant because I'm wondering that if I finally get down my current thoughts on paper, when I put the last final period on this thing, does that mean that my current state of affairs is over? I certainly hope not. So maybe I won't end this blog then...But let's see where we can fill in some gaps.
First off, the holiday break: It was good. Not great. But good. I got to go home after a long drawn out busride back to Raleigh where my mom met me and got looked at by some triffling bus boys. I stayed at home and chilled with the family before introducing them to the 2007 game of Life, where they indulged in the coolness of using the new Milton Bradley credit cards. It was interesting to say the least. This of course, (family time at the table) evolved into a full blown discussion about sexuality leading to my assertion (good for me!) against the so-called parental tyranny they've been excuting over my life for the past three years. I told them basically that I felt like I was doing really good in my life and that I didn't need to feel the negativity from their side anymore because it was basically dragging me down. After some screaming, much talking and some denial, I got them to at least attempt to understand the situation better, and I moved on. For Christmas, I got an mp4 player that records and takes pictures, some designer jeans, a fedora, some cologne, an Angelina Jolie poster and the new and old Halloween flicks. The grandparents came over and we enjoyed a cool if not civil dinner between them before they vanished, and life moved on. I came back to school afterwards, and that was that.
School has since then started up again and I ran into some major drama back here. First being that Dr. Vela (whom I've previously liked and admired) has really messed me up on this one. The same Shakespeare grade that I've been asking for since December has yet to show up, and I needed it in time for a graduate school review on my application. Though I've pleaded with him several times, I have yet to recieve any kind of grade, and at this point in the game, I don't care anymore. I'm gonna send my application off with or without the consent. I have my letters (which were glowing) and things are good. The school played some major bullshit with classes, forgetting that I pay for school via VR and with this forgetfulness, they dropped me resulting in the cancellation of my schooling. I quickly fixed this problem, and went about my business. The classes are good, though the workload is getting to be a bit problematic. This is more work than I think I've ever had at the beginning of a semester, and it's a little crazy, so I'll have to ask for a tutor for my Physical Science class. I could care less about actually achieving a good grade for it (though I'd like to) but I just need to pass it to be done for good. So that's that.
Frankie's left the school which shocked me kinda interestingly due to problems with Financial Aid. The funny thing I would've been in Frankie's situation long before now if I hadn't of moved in here when I did. This is just another one of those the Lord looking out kinda things. Everything is working according to plan.
Believe it or not, this issue with PMA (that I thought was over) is not. That will have to come at another blog, to really go into that one.
Anything else I missed? Hmmm not for this blog...
Wednesday, 16 January 2008
Friday, 14 December 2007
And So It's Done...
Well at least one of my wishes has finally come true. This nightmare of a semester is finally finished, which makes me kind of worry for what's to come. If this semester was so crucial, what the hell am I going to have to do next year? Gosh. It's a little bit daunting when you consider the possibilities. And of course, I now have this stupid ass apartment to take care of, but in a way I don't feel that bad about that part since I figured I ordered this I should continue with it and finish up with what I've got. But yes the semester is done and I didn't do half bad really. It had the potential to be a lot worse, since I had this serious bout of "I don't want to do shit," about halfway through, but I managed to push through that part and I think I made it alright. Unforetunately, all of my grades are still not in and to make matters worse the GPA part has not been calculated yet leaving me completely in the dark as to what the hell they call themselves doing over in the Registrar's office. It ain't like they got that much to do when the semester's done! Surely it wouldn't take an entire month just to imput coordinates and information into a computer for grades! But I guess for them, it does. Anyway, next semester I have a SHIT load of stuff to accomplish in order to get prepared for what happens when school is over. Off the top of my head let's see here:
*I've got to put in an application next month to VIA to go participate in their English study abroad in Malaysia (hopefully I'll get accepted into the program)
*I've got to finish drawing and getting together the application for FIDM to submit to them by Februrary.
*I have to submit an application to the HRC for the summertime in an attempt to get a paid internship there to hopefully lead to a more permanent position if something else doesn't come up.
*I've got to attend the informational meeting in January for the WRP so I can possibly do the NASA program again this summer to also lead to a permanet position.
*I've got to contact my mom about some freelance journalistic work for her magazine.
*I have to search for an apartment outside of the area to move to and figure out whether or not Shon is coming with me.
All of that. In a six month period on top of my classes...it's going to be a mess. At least I can happily say it will be the last mess I have to deal with. I finally finished Christmas shopping for everyone, so I just have to wait until the last of the stuff comes in and take it back. I also need to contact the people over at VR and see what can be done about this last semester and the future coming up. Ahhh...so much. makes your head wanna pop. At least in the interim I've discovered a temporary remedy. 24. That show is the SHIT! And the finale? Wow. They are a hot mess. that's all I'm gonna say about that.
*I've got to put in an application next month to VIA to go participate in their English study abroad in Malaysia (hopefully I'll get accepted into the program)
*I've got to finish drawing and getting together the application for FIDM to submit to them by Februrary.
*I have to submit an application to the HRC for the summertime in an attempt to get a paid internship there to hopefully lead to a more permanent position if something else doesn't come up.
*I've got to attend the informational meeting in January for the WRP so I can possibly do the NASA program again this summer to also lead to a permanet position.
*I've got to contact my mom about some freelance journalistic work for her magazine.
*I have to search for an apartment outside of the area to move to and figure out whether or not Shon is coming with me.
All of that. In a six month period on top of my classes...it's going to be a mess. At least I can happily say it will be the last mess I have to deal with. I finally finished Christmas shopping for everyone, so I just have to wait until the last of the stuff comes in and take it back. I also need to contact the people over at VR and see what can be done about this last semester and the future coming up. Ahhh...so much. makes your head wanna pop. At least in the interim I've discovered a temporary remedy. 24. That show is the SHIT! And the finale? Wow. They are a hot mess. that's all I'm gonna say about that.
Tuesday, 13 November 2007
Still Counting Down 186 Days Left....
I can't believe it's been almost a full month since I've last posted in this thing. Time really is flying too fast for me to keep up with. Yet at the same time, it's not moving fast enough to allow me to play Assassin's Creed and Mass Effect...grrrrr....anyways....so yeah what can I do as far as an update? Well the past month has been pretty interesting to say nonetheless. There's been some renewed interest in the love life department as I met and hung out with Max, but that's an interesting dilemma that I'm not sure I'm ready to tackle with. True, I've been wanting someone to hang out with for quite a while now so I could get to know and develop into something more substantial than just a light night fling, but I'm realizing that this is my final year in Pembroke and after May I probably won't be back to this town for the next two to three years again. So anything and anyone that I get involved with is going to have to be real down played. Anyway....
Max showed up and and we started to hang out and he's really cool. The thing about it is this. I know I'm not like Big Kevin. He's one of those guys who thinks that just because he's gay and "straight-acting" that this fact alone should automatically land him a man. I don't think that way. I've already come to terms with the fact that my mannerisms would be considered in the middle. I'm not ultra-macho with the whole "nailing bitches...playing football" thing but yet not ultra feminine either with the "let me get my MAC on first" kinda thing. I like the freedom that I get from having a little bit of both sides. However that doesn't mean that I'll date someone that's on either end of the spectrum either. I don't think I'd date an ultra masculine guy because he'd be too much into sports, which generally don't interst me, which would mean we wouldn't have a whole lot in common, while at the same time, I don't want someone who spends eight hours in the bathroom either. Not to say that Max is one or the other, but just for me personally, having just met him, he's a bit too much on the queeny side for me. He shows up to my apartment decked out in gold hoop earrings with this ponytail bun thing looking like he just put some foundation on and it was kind of embarrassing to have him introduced to my roommates. Now if I were alone with no one else there, it wouldn't have been a big deal, but they've been harping and harping on this same fact, so I didn't know what they would think about him. And I don't know what their impressions are nor do I want to. However, it was a little bit scary for me to bring him in there. But we did have a good time and we hung out and he's funny so maybe I'm not giving it a proper chance but at this point in the game, I already asked him what he plans on doing in the next year and he's staying here and creating a business. That's not my plans cause they sure as hell don't involve Robeson County, so we're not even in the same mainstream. And then you have Jamie who's been trying to talk to me for a while but honestly I didnt't want to hurt his feelings or anything. But he's not my type. Not that I have anything against guys bigger than me, but I don't see how that would help us in the long run. If I needed you to get my chair out of the trunk and you couldn't do it, where would that put us? Looking like dumbasses. So I don't bother. So I don't know. There's this guy Jose, but that's a warning flag if I ever saw one. For one thing he's 19 (which I normally don't do either way. Too young), but he's cute so I gave him the time of day. To which he responds that he needs to borrow his sister's car to come and see me. LIES and DECEPTION. I don't have a car myself but that's because of extinginuating circumstances. There isn't a whole lot of a reason why he should be borrowing a car like that. So yeah....
That's issue A. Issue B is the ever looming closeness of this situation with Grad School. I want to go to Fashion School. I really do. But I don't want to start over again. With another four year degree. And I don't want a degree lower than the one I've got. So what do I do? I could look other places but it's San Fran. I was so highly looking forward to going there for the life and it's looking like it's slowly slipping through my fingers. I haven't given up hope yet. I'll find out more and figure something out.
Turns out VR decided to do something right for a change. Delora Jacobs, who works with Ronnie Sampson told me that they decided to actually try and help pay for rent, which would be fabulous. So I'm supposed to be meeting up with her to discuss something to work something out so I can sign up papers and get some checks....which would be great.
Man I can't wait till this semester is over and I'm chilling with Julia over in Nashville. The end of this year just can't come fast enough. And yet I know that next semester will be complete torture. I can see it coming. Complete and utter SENIORITIS....
P.S. I almost forgot to add (and I can't believe I almost did) the new Britney Spears' album is the SHIIIIIIITTTTT!!!! Man I love her! Though she's losing her damn mind, she still knows how to make kick ass music. Thank you for that Brit!
Max showed up and and we started to hang out and he's really cool. The thing about it is this. I know I'm not like Big Kevin. He's one of those guys who thinks that just because he's gay and "straight-acting" that this fact alone should automatically land him a man. I don't think that way. I've already come to terms with the fact that my mannerisms would be considered in the middle. I'm not ultra-macho with the whole "nailing bitches...playing football" thing but yet not ultra feminine either with the "let me get my MAC on first" kinda thing. I like the freedom that I get from having a little bit of both sides. However that doesn't mean that I'll date someone that's on either end of the spectrum either. I don't think I'd date an ultra masculine guy because he'd be too much into sports, which generally don't interst me, which would mean we wouldn't have a whole lot in common, while at the same time, I don't want someone who spends eight hours in the bathroom either. Not to say that Max is one or the other, but just for me personally, having just met him, he's a bit too much on the queeny side for me. He shows up to my apartment decked out in gold hoop earrings with this ponytail bun thing looking like he just put some foundation on and it was kind of embarrassing to have him introduced to my roommates. Now if I were alone with no one else there, it wouldn't have been a big deal, but they've been harping and harping on this same fact, so I didn't know what they would think about him. And I don't know what their impressions are nor do I want to. However, it was a little bit scary for me to bring him in there. But we did have a good time and we hung out and he's funny so maybe I'm not giving it a proper chance but at this point in the game, I already asked him what he plans on doing in the next year and he's staying here and creating a business. That's not my plans cause they sure as hell don't involve Robeson County, so we're not even in the same mainstream. And then you have Jamie who's been trying to talk to me for a while but honestly I didnt't want to hurt his feelings or anything. But he's not my type. Not that I have anything against guys bigger than me, but I don't see how that would help us in the long run. If I needed you to get my chair out of the trunk and you couldn't do it, where would that put us? Looking like dumbasses. So I don't bother. So I don't know. There's this guy Jose, but that's a warning flag if I ever saw one. For one thing he's 19 (which I normally don't do either way. Too young), but he's cute so I gave him the time of day. To which he responds that he needs to borrow his sister's car to come and see me. LIES and DECEPTION. I don't have a car myself but that's because of extinginuating circumstances. There isn't a whole lot of a reason why he should be borrowing a car like that. So yeah....
That's issue A. Issue B is the ever looming closeness of this situation with Grad School. I want to go to Fashion School. I really do. But I don't want to start over again. With another four year degree. And I don't want a degree lower than the one I've got. So what do I do? I could look other places but it's San Fran. I was so highly looking forward to going there for the life and it's looking like it's slowly slipping through my fingers. I haven't given up hope yet. I'll find out more and figure something out.
Turns out VR decided to do something right for a change. Delora Jacobs, who works with Ronnie Sampson told me that they decided to actually try and help pay for rent, which would be fabulous. So I'm supposed to be meeting up with her to discuss something to work something out so I can sign up papers and get some checks....which would be great.
Man I can't wait till this semester is over and I'm chilling with Julia over in Nashville. The end of this year just can't come fast enough. And yet I know that next semester will be complete torture. I can see it coming. Complete and utter SENIORITIS....
P.S. I almost forgot to add (and I can't believe I almost did) the new Britney Spears' album is the SHIIIIIIITTTTT!!!! Man I love her! Though she's losing her damn mind, she still knows how to make kick ass music. Thank you for that Brit!
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