Ugh.

I just have to say I really hate hypocrisy. My fiction teacher Leone, is and was really good at teaching, I'm not saying she isn't. But I don't understand now that my grades have come back from class, why I have the lowest grade in the class second to a person who failed out completely. Especially when I did so much ridiculous work for that class, and it just seems completely pointless. In comparison with someone who barely worked at all and spent all her time running around London at every party with everyone. I'm not saying she isn't good. Natalie is an amazing writer. but in comparison to the fact that I spent so much time cooped up reading books on writing and trying to emulate and make better, and then she just arrives with a piece that was really out there and odd and gets a god-like score. It's disconcerting and really upsetting.

otherwise, life is fine. I'm ready for this semester to be done already and we're only halfway through. It doesn't make me feel good that my teacher and dissertation overseer Elizabeth Clegg is making it sound like our dissertation is going to be utterly impossible. That's not really the way to inspire people into doing good work. but I'll just keep trying to get through it. It's not helping that I'm supposed to have 3 games coming to me sometime but I don't see them or when they'll be here. It'd be nice to bury myself in some Demon's Souls or Assassin's Creed 2 or even...god forbid...Mass Effect 2.

ugh.