All the King's Horses, & All the King's Men, Could Put This Back Together Again...

This Entry Is Long, But Well Worth It.

Well I'm pleased to say that finally after so long of getting nothing but constant bad news one right after the other, and feeling like shit for the past week, that things are finally getting settled down. Not looking up neccessarily, but at least all the pieces are where they need to be. I can see where everything is, and where it's going and what I need to do to keep it that way. So...here's the new deal.

First off, still no word back from Bobby. No sure what he's going to do in regards to that Xbox, but considering that I probably won't be getting it back (with a high probability of eighty percent), I figure I would just use the money he sends me buy a new one and ship it off, and keep the difference. Pocket myself a cool three hundred bucks. Not the miraculous eight hundred I was hungry for, but money is money. I realize that now. And at this point in the game, I vying for whatever I can get my hands on.

Speaking of Diane, I've come to discover that somehow, in someone's distant mind, she has discovered that out of her security deposit box, (of which I had no clue she kept) a whopping $900.00 dollars has come sweeping out like a bat out of hell. And all signs are pointing towards me at this point. Not really sure if they're pointing anywhere else, cause NO ONE EVER CALLS ME TO LET ME KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON.... but I can get over it. I will say it once and only once. I had absolutely nothing to do with it. At this point, if she's going to blame me, I wish I did have something to do with it, cause at least I would have got away with 900 bucks, and not be fucking scrounching around for what I can find. But anyway, we're not going to dwell on that. Cause it will just make me angrier.

I went to see UltraViolet today at the theatres with Qasim. That movie fucking rocks! Milla J. is da baddest bitch! Move yo ass over Trina. Cause you aint got shit on dis bitch! She was dodging bullets at point blank range in a complete circle against fifteen guys. Without slow motion! Do that, Neo! I don't think so! And to top it off, she took on 700 (count it) goons at the end, and won! How's that for a body count? Neo was having mega trouble with a mere 100 Agent Smiths. Ha. 100. Violet laughs at the very thought of something as pitiful as that. But yeah. It was as fucking awesome as action movies get. Definately one for the collection.

In other news, I found out with much relief and delight that my check is still on the way from the school. Apparently before I switched sides from Char Safley to Ronnie Sampson, Char had the insight to green light my electronic signature for the entire year. Which means, I don't have to worry about getting confirmation for this semester. Which means, they're going to be sending that check, and it gets sent to me. So hopefully I'll be looking at another 2 grand plus before the month is out. That will be my life saving support system. Cause I've still got to get books and groceries. But at least that's one less thing to worry about.

I ordered my wheelchair batteries today, officially draining out the rest of my account, (I just hope my parents have enough sensitivity left not to ask me for rent, with this whole Diane drama playing out) and their going to be here some time next week. It will be nice to be in my electric chair again, riding to the theatre when I damn well please, cause this Qasim shit just aint workin' out. Not that I don't appreciate it, cause Lord knows what I'd do if he didn't take me everywhere. But still I hate to be such a burden on him and his car. It can barely support him as it is. So I'll have a new set of batteries next week. Which leaves only the issue of the electric converter. And now, since that incident with the phone company earlier this week, I officially don't have enough to order the converter, which means I'll have to wait on the check from the school, or ask my parents to borrow a hundred bucks to get it. Which I'll probably do anyway.

Mom's off in Myrtle Beach, and I called Delta Airlines where I got the disturbing news that they were attempting to reassemble my chair when I reach Atlanta airport. My fligth itinerary looks like this: 3:02 pm, I leave RDU and fly to Atlanta reaching it at 5:11 pm. Then approximately at 6:00 sharp, the plane leaves Atlanta to head for Stuttgart Germany where it arrives at 10:00 am the next morning, or April 1st. According to Delta Airlines, I need approximately 60 minutes in between planes in order to switch with ease. But as you can see, (if you can count) I don't have 60 minutes from Atlanta's flight. So I will have to contact them to let them know not to reassemble my chair when I land. Hopefully that will fix itself.

I paid off the last of the phone bill like I said, amid threats of legal action, forcing me to forgo my plans of the converter. Instead, I paid off the school's insurance to Tina this morning, including the front page of the passport document like she asked. Now the only thing left is to obtain the directions on the breakdown of the chair, contact the school in regards to classes, and meet Peter on the 17th of this month. Officially I have done a hell of a lot to get prepared for this experience, but I know it will pay for itself. I know that this trip will be one for the history books. If not for UNCP, at least for me. Something I can always remember. And it's for that reason, I can't wait. Let alone my birthday...hehehe.

Oh yeah, by the way, I talked to Daniel. He seems to understand that I don't neccessarily want to sleep with him again. He seemed rather cordial and understanding about my situation, agreeing to keep it on the low. He offered for me to meet Henri and all and spend some time together, which is want I wanted in the first place. It's funny how I had to give up the ass to do that...lol. Anyway, till next time. Hopefully things will only go up from here. We can hope. I know I do.



27 DAYS LEFT

....And Here Is the Reality That Comes to Bitch-Slap You in the Head....

I just randomly went online to check my email, and here's an update on some of the things happening. First, just when it looked like good old Bobby was gonna be able to solve my many monetary issues with the whole Xbox issue, he disappeared off the face of the map, so I wasn't sure if he was gonna be able to help me. Turns out Diane has decided to hold my stuff hostage because she feels like I haven't paid her enough money as of yet to satisfy her, to which my mother feels like she's being betrayed into having to pay her more, even though she already gave her quite a bit. So my mother is now very upset with me and with Diane, (who promised to send it like a week and a half ago) but I hope that she manages to pay off Diane so I can get my stuff back. I haven't heard any word from Brett, who's supposed to be helping me on the side with any monetary functions that he can come up with. And in truth, I'm not looking for him to. I mean, I know that he has obligations and all since he's moving to Canada with his girlfriend Amanda and all that, but I told him that if he's going to do it, then he's doing it strictly of his own free will. Now as far as Daniel goes...I'm not so sure I want to even continue to know him. I know that he has it in his mind that he's going to be able to call me and whatnot, and that I'm just going to go over there from time to time let him do what he wants, and then leave, but I only used that one time as a training ground, not as the foundation to some kind of threesome relationship between him, Henri and myself. Although his cat Aimie is simply adorable. But he sent pictures today, I think, which I don't even want to look at now, cause they'll make me sick to my stomach. I think I'm going to delete them. And if he did what he said, then no one will ever know. Besides the three of us. Oh yes....and it seems that evil has come back to haunt me today, in the form of LDG financial services. Miss Amber called this morning, and this is the insurance company that's been hounding me for the last year and a half trying to get me to pay off the damn Alltel bill from two summers ago. It's not that I didn't want to pay off the bill, it's that I was trying to figure out a way to get Alltel to take the credit off of my account so I could get the money back for it. But it doesn't look like that's going to happen, and so in the end, she ended up threatening me with the fact that if I don't pay off this last check, they were going to take it to court, which would result in a misademeanor charge on my criminal background for a bad check. And the worst part about this is, I don't even have enough money to begin with, and here they come trying to get more. So I just gave in and paid the rest of the account off, but the bad part to this says that between that one check and Tina's insurance money, I won't have enough money to make rent this month....I'll be a few dollars short. Hopefully, my dad can see past that or something, but it doesn't leave me anything to get any of the things I needed to (ie, batteries, transformer) so I don't know what the fuck to do. I'm supposed to leave in approximately thirty days now, and I don't know how the hell it's gonna happen, unless I just borrow the money from my parents for now and have them take their share back out out of my check for April. That's about the only solution that I can come up with in the immediate future. I don't know. And to make matters worse, I open my email today and once again Keen Horoscopes hits it directly on the head with this one:


Wednesday, March 1, 2006
aries horoscope

Your Wednesday Horoscope D'Arcee!
A journey with someone quite experienced will show you a side of life that is something you were not aware of. The shock will wear off and things that start off looking fantastic will soon appear quite dull.

My God, I swear. Sometimes, these people don't know just how right they are. I know that horoscopes are meant to be broad and open, so to give the appearance that they know more than they say they do, but this is just a bit too specific for me to be just so general. Uuuggghhhhh.....I don't know....I need to talk to someone.....I don't know. I really don't.

30 DAYS LEFT.

Ohhhh....So This Is What It Feels Like. I'm Not Sure I Like It....

well I did it. I went to Daniel's house and he proceeded to fuck the shit out of me. He fucked me for like three hours straight, and in truth, it didn't hurt as much as I thought, but it was definately a weird feeling. I suppose as you do it more you get used to it, but I didn't neccessarily like the fact that he had me doing everything to him. Kissing, sucking his cock and the whole nine. He even footjobbed me, which isn't as much fun as I thought. I appears that the soles of his feet are really very rough. But either way, it was alright. Though I feel like he was trying to rush me out of the house afterwards to so I wouldn't have to meet his partner, Henri. Either way, that's it I did. I lost my virginity on today February 28th, 2006. And in truth, I'm not sure it was a good thing. But either way. What's done is done. No regrets. However, I don't know why he had to take pictures of the whole thing. That wasn't neccessary. But I'm still wary about the whole thing. And all I want to do is go take an STD test. I've got to. For myself.