It's Time to Get Me Some Sex in the City

It's a rather apt title, considering the show. But after devouring a few episodes tonight, I'm thinking I need to start taking the show's advice. Okay I'll admit. Britain hasn't been the best bag of tricks. The place hasn't been the all-inspiring, super mega fabulousness that I wanted it to be, and yes I still prefer Germany over this, even when I was begging to be here while I was there. However, I think that sitting here wishing for things to be different than they are isn't going to help me get anymore out of what I want from it. So...with that in mind, I think I'm going to start my own little Carrie-esque escapades from the first week of April onward.

Considering that they may very well be my last few months in the center of the universe that is London England, I figure I need to get more out of it than what I've done so far, and much of that, has little to nothing to do with some man being there. So what does that mean? That means that starting the first week (or whenever this last check comes through) I'm pledging (oh God I thought I'd never use that word again) to head to one club every weekend and to come back on the night route. I'm going to learn the night buses and how to get around without that god awful Underground to deal with, and I'm going to go and meet guys and have fun, with no expectations, no thoughts of where it might lead and no mindset of anything happening at anytime.

I think life is too short to sit around in a room and ponder about the abilities and the hows and whys I can't get somewhere, and to be fair, I did meet Chris that way and he was wonderful and marvelous and I'm grateful I did (speaking of which I REALLY need to email him) and I need to meet another Chris here. I guess I kinda already have one in Rafal, but he doesn't give me what I need all the time, and it's nice to know that there is that option without it having to be tied to my internet. So that means when my money comes in there's a few things I'm going to do.

A:I'm going shopping at Primark and I'm gonna buy up a bunch of new stuff from the girls' section and play around with Jen and find some new stuff to wear for the weather.

B: I'm going to buy my plane ticket to head home in August so I know I have an exit plan if nothing goes like it should here.

C: I'm going to book at least 4 trips over the summer to four different destinations so I have a summer of traveling in Europe to look forward to.

D: I'm going to get my hair done professionally and get styling tips so I know how to keep my fresh going if I do decide to leave.

E: I'm going to keep looking for a position and something that I know I can do when this is done, because planning is one thing I do best.

F: I'm going to meet guys and have fun and stop expecting so much. I just need to do that.

And that's just going to be that really. It's something that I have to make my mind to do and I need whole days to do it because hours isn't something that's going to let me do what my heart is telling me I need. I want to go all the way to Covent Garden and explore the innerds of SoHo and figure out where all the clubs are and argue with the managers who won't let me in and the whole nine. I deserve it. I deserve that and more. And that's just it. I'm gonna go get me some Sex in the City.