Okay I'm sorry. I've really been neglecting you lately and I really shouldn't. There's so many things I could put here and it would be good for me because then I go back and read and think about what the hell was wrong with me when I wrote it. lol. Anyway, I'm going to try and be better. Really.
Okay so now thaet we've dispersed with the apologies, I've got a few things to say:
First off, life. Life is...good at the moment. Not great, since I made a stupid mistake and spent way too much money when I went to Las Vegas last weeek, spending way more than I should, but I had a fabulous time and I don't regret that part. But that's later. Right now, I'm still at VETS and will be there until I leave for London (God willing). The craziest thing is I would've been at DOL for a year next month. That's so insane! I've never kept anything like a job for a summer, let alone a year! I could practically become a full-fledged Fed. If it wasn't for this grad school thing, I might seriously consider it, though I would have to move to another agency. DOL isn't really doing it for me. I don't know maybe the FBI or the CIA...maybe...but anyway that's all wishful thinking. I don't really want to be involved with the government on second thought. It's a great bridgeway position for me, especially since everyone else is losing their jobs left and right. I'm just so blessed to be able to be stable enough to pay my bills and to be doing things that are helpful for the veterans in this country at the same time. It's a true blessing and I thank God for looking out for me.
Next, soooo Shon is now staying here with me as of yesterday. Mom says he's going to be here for the rest fo the summer, and I have yet to see how that's going to work. I think that she just finally got tired of having him in her house, and she was looking for a way to get rid of him without just kicking him out completely, so she puts him on me. It's not exactly fair, as I'm trying to get my life together by myself right now, and everything I'm doing will have to be put on hold...but whatever it's done. As a side note, our cat Angel died like two weeks ago from complications of cancer so we don't have a pet anymore... :( It was really random and whatnot but I figured she lived a long and happy life with people who loved her so it's all good. Still sucks though.
Next there's London. So far, everything seems to be going well though it's moving really...really slowly and I'm not referring to time. I've been waiting on them to certify my loan for like two months now, and supposedly everything was approved and all of that, so I'm just waiting for my financial aid letter that tells me so. Though they're taking their good old sweet time sending it out. *sigh* I guess this is what you have to put up with to get what you want. But I did get an email the other day and I officially applied for on-campus housing the other day and I have an aofficial student ID number so I'd say it's pretty official.
Second to last, I'm very pleased to say that two of my co-workers Lisa and Jenel have actually inspired me to start writing my new book (finally) though it has no title as of yet. Though I will say I'm am super excited about the prospect of getting this one done. Jenel showed me some tricks on Friday about how to manipulate the pages and whatnot to get it to look like it would be when its printed out for real, and I have to say I was so thrilled to see my writing looking like real pages, I didn't want to stop. I'm really hoping to have the entire manuscript written and finished by Memorial Day weekend. That'd be great. They're soooo getting a dedication page!
And finally. There's Cole.
Or actually Las Vegas to be more precise. I went there last week for my birthday and it was great. The weather was beautiful, it was like 75 the whole time and it was bright and breezy in the desert. Las Vegas is truly like an adult's playground. Each hotel is like a different theme park with it's own shows and attractions. It was pretty cool. There was so much going on all the time, I was actually exhausted before the trip was done and I couldn't do anymore! But even though that was all in there and stuff, I don't really wanna talk about that. I'd rather talk about Cole. I met Mr. Cole at a strip tease show I went to for my birthday and he was behind me with his boyfriend (?) Joey and their friend Steven. After the show, (which was HAWT as fuck) I was hanging out with them and they chilled with me in the room for awhile. And I also hung out with them the next night too. I will tell you that I've never wanted to steal anyone else's man as much as I wanted Cole. I wanted just grab him in front of Joey and start making out and hear him moan and touch me and I wouldn't give a fuck who was standing there that's how crucial it was! After I left, he was messaging me and we were talking and he was saying he'd wished I did!!!! Grrrr NOW he says this when we're thousands of miles apart. Man I swear. Men have the absolute worse timing! And on top of that, he's not really feeling Joey even though they're the same age (19! I know, I don't date dudes younger than me, but he's totally different. He's like older than me mentally) and so I figure it perfect. But alas, I've got yet to find out how he feels. *sigh*
Sunday, 19 April 2009
Wednesday, 11 February 2009
I Feel Like Sylar From Heroes....
Not because I cut people's heads off and absorb their powers via brain matter (though there are a few people who's heads I'd like to cut), but rather because he always seems to be hearing clocks whenever he starts thinking about something too hard and I can hear my own clock ticking as I start piecing together this London trip. It's like already March (I can't believe that. This time last year I was heading to Hollywood-Wednesday would be a year ago- to go to that audition at FIDM) and I can see things turning very slowly as evidence that something is finally going a certain way. True, I still have many things that I need to work out, like what the hell I gonna do with this furniture before I go, exactly how much aid I'm getting so I can plan accordingly, where I'm gonna stay when i get there, how the hell this gas bill's gonna be taken caer of and things like that, but I can see it all coming to an end.
A part of me is kinda upset in that I don't want to feel this upcoming spirit thing again meaning when I left NC I had this idea in my head about how DC was gonna be so great because it wasn't NC and that it was gonna be bigger, and the guys cuter and nicer and more open, and I'm finding that that isn't the case. I know when I went to Europe, I had a lot more experiences there than usual, so I don't want to base my faith off a semester staying there but at least I have already been there once so I have some inkling of what to expect. The people here are just like people anywhere else and I'm finding it hard to cope with that fact especially in the evenings when everything is quiet. Normally I like quiet. But sometimes, I hate the fact that it's too quiet here. That's why I blast my boombox to give me something to listen to because I don't want to hear the thoughts in my head that tell me I could be something right now. Meeting someone, talking to someone, god forbid making love to someone. So I don't focus on that. Instead just try to think about the other things in life. Like this upcoming London trip.
Tick, tock. Tick, tock.
A part of me is kinda upset in that I don't want to feel this upcoming spirit thing again meaning when I left NC I had this idea in my head about how DC was gonna be so great because it wasn't NC and that it was gonna be bigger, and the guys cuter and nicer and more open, and I'm finding that that isn't the case. I know when I went to Europe, I had a lot more experiences there than usual, so I don't want to base my faith off a semester staying there but at least I have already been there once so I have some inkling of what to expect. The people here are just like people anywhere else and I'm finding it hard to cope with that fact especially in the evenings when everything is quiet. Normally I like quiet. But sometimes, I hate the fact that it's too quiet here. That's why I blast my boombox to give me something to listen to because I don't want to hear the thoughts in my head that tell me I could be something right now. Meeting someone, talking to someone, god forbid making love to someone. So I don't focus on that. Instead just try to think about the other things in life. Like this upcoming London trip.
Tick, tock. Tick, tock.
It May Be Anti-Internet Time!
February 11, 2009 - Wednesday
It may be anti internet time!
Current mood: calm
Okay there so there's a few things to report I suppose just for the sake of keeping a record. I get my response from Canada and they said no in an interesting twist, but that's cool cause it just pushed my decision towards London anyway, so that's fine though it's a little disappointing as that was where I wanted to go really badly. Hmmm well anyway, things at VETS are fine and I'm just working there doing my thing hoping to get into Interior sometime in the near future since I've already told them I may give that up if they take too long. Interestingly, they have me doing the same kind of project I was doing for ODEPE before I left, and I was telling Greg (one of the guys in there) that if this keeps up I may just start my own contracting company with the feds doing advertising and the like for them.
I went to Angel's get-together this past weekend in PG plaza (for her birthday that was last week) well all met to see "He's Just Not That Into You" and I'll get to that in a minute. I was kinda surprise at the kind of company that she keeps, though I'm never one to criticize the company someone keeps unless they directly offend me. A lot of her friends are wheelchair bound, an the one thing that just makes me feel uncomfortable was just being around them. I'm not used to that kind of thing and even one of the guys (Huey) told me I didn't look like a CP person he'd seen. I guess that'a compliment though I didn't recognize the difference. They just all look really sickly and it makes me feel rather uncomfortable. The one guy Michael, he tried to be in everyone's conversation at once, and if what I've heard is true and he's bi or whatever I sincerely hope I get a man before he does. If not, I'll commit suicide. lol
The movie was pretty good (funny at parts) but it was resonating with me on a different level which is why I'm thinking about going black a few days. It's just ridiculous to come home and get on the computer looking for stuff that you already know isn't there. And I do it everday and it's getting on my nerves. It felt great just getting up and heading out somewhere with no particular agenda. I did it again tonight and picked up some Taco Bell and went and saw "Push" which was pretty hot (mmmm Chris Evans made me hard through random parts of the movie....especially those Chucks he had....mmmm fucking boner!) And maybe later in the week I may head down to Dupont and chill at a bar or something. I've been putting it off and I'm tired of it. We'll have to see.
It may be anti internet time!
Current mood: calm
Okay there so there's a few things to report I suppose just for the sake of keeping a record. I get my response from Canada and they said no in an interesting twist, but that's cool cause it just pushed my decision towards London anyway, so that's fine though it's a little disappointing as that was where I wanted to go really badly. Hmmm well anyway, things at VETS are fine and I'm just working there doing my thing hoping to get into Interior sometime in the near future since I've already told them I may give that up if they take too long. Interestingly, they have me doing the same kind of project I was doing for ODEPE before I left, and I was telling Greg (one of the guys in there) that if this keeps up I may just start my own contracting company with the feds doing advertising and the like for them.
I went to Angel's get-together this past weekend in PG plaza (for her birthday that was last week) well all met to see "He's Just Not That Into You" and I'll get to that in a minute. I was kinda surprise at the kind of company that she keeps, though I'm never one to criticize the company someone keeps unless they directly offend me. A lot of her friends are wheelchair bound, an the one thing that just makes me feel uncomfortable was just being around them. I'm not used to that kind of thing and even one of the guys (Huey) told me I didn't look like a CP person he'd seen. I guess that'a compliment though I didn't recognize the difference. They just all look really sickly and it makes me feel rather uncomfortable. The one guy Michael, he tried to be in everyone's conversation at once, and if what I've heard is true and he's bi or whatever I sincerely hope I get a man before he does. If not, I'll commit suicide. lol
The movie was pretty good (funny at parts) but it was resonating with me on a different level which is why I'm thinking about going black a few days. It's just ridiculous to come home and get on the computer looking for stuff that you already know isn't there. And I do it everday and it's getting on my nerves. It felt great just getting up and heading out somewhere with no particular agenda. I did it again tonight and picked up some Taco Bell and went and saw "Push" which was pretty hot (mmmm Chris Evans made me hard through random parts of the movie....especially those Chucks he had....mmmm fucking boner!) And maybe later in the week I may head down to Dupont and chill at a bar or something. I've been putting it off and I'm tired of it. We'll have to see.
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