Life Update Part Two: Tuesday

So then, this is the part that I couldn't really explain about before but I feel like it's important to go through even if I'm the only one that can read it because I'm gonna need it for myself and stuff. So I'm also dealing with this stuff from PMA and after the first meeting within like two hours, I was talking to Efrain and he informs me of the fact that they already think I'm a snobbish asshole who only thinks of himself and stuff because I wasn't "humbled" enough to join the group to begin with. That pissed me off like hell, especially since Jackie had come to me earlier talking about "oh I heard you're pledging, well you should forget it because you're not gonna make it. Tlhey're gonna punk you out." I hate it when people tell me what I can and cannot do and stuff. That just makes me feel like only out to tell me the things that they think I can't do. So from that moment on, I decided to change my entire tactic and everything. Apparently since they thought that I was "unapproachable" which was one of the terms given to me (after which I had had an interesting conversation with PJ they're leader who told me that I was not humble enough and too forward at first and to lower my guard) and he informed me to modify my tactics. So I've been trying to do so the whole time that I've been dealing with this. I'm decided to hang out with the guys at lunch (turns out Jason Grimes-the guy next door to me, the one that doesn't speak?- is actually quite hilarious and a great guy too. And Astrada's not bad himself, either) and I'm always talking to them and trying to hang out a parties and make myself available. I don't want PJ and the others saying that I didn't make an effort that I wasn't there for them and that I was too myself like Aaron told me (of which he said he was convinced that I was a snobbish asshole that kept completely to myself and really selfish-keep in mind, he doesn't know me like at ALL but nevertheless, that doesn't stop me from acting like it apparently)So I approached him to the side, (although I didn't want to, but I didn't see any other alternative to get his attention) he told me how he felt about me and all of that but eventually he said he would wipe the slate clean and all of that. So basically that's what I've been trying to do with myself is go and corner each of the individual PMA's and basically get them to see that I'm trying to change my ways so I can pledge and move on and finally get the damn letters and move on. However the real test as to all of this work is worth it, is on Monday when bids actually come out. I guess I'll have to see what's really going on then. It will determine my whole outlook and attactivities on this campus this year.