If this doesn't qualify for a pre-season finale, I don't know what does. I can't believe it. I just can't fucking believe it. After two fucking years, the impossible has happened. The person who I cursed the hell out after high school has apologized for the way he treated me. Of course, it could just be a ploy to make me feel like shit. However, it doesn't matter. I've managed to catch up with mister Patrick Stone who currently attends UNCC, but who moved to Alabama, and I told him everything. How I felt, how he made me feel, what I did to him and everything. And to my great surprise, he apologzied. Several times over, if I might add. I honestly don't know what to say. I've been thinking about this day for the last two and half years. I've always thought about what I would say to him if I ever get a chance to talk to him again. I've always wondered and thought about whether or not I would be able to speak to him after what he did to me. I told him that I completely dogged him in my yearbook, and that he was a complete and utter asshole to me. He repeatedly apologized to me and said that he was really sorry and he didn't mean any of it. He told me that because he was with this girl Heather, she had messed up his mind and he had put all of his friends on the backburner and caused a lot of people to be hurt. But he told me that she cheated on him with his best friend and now he doesn't talk to either one of them. He told me that his parents moved to Alabama for foretunately he still goes to UNCC, and that he was able to get his life back on the right track. And it is in this that the problem lies. Though strangely enough, t's not with him. But rather with me. He told me that he's tried to turn over a new leaf in life and that he's tried to make himself into a better person and all of that how he goes to church and how he's trying to restructure himself so he can live a better life mentally and spiritually. Which of course, in turn, made me feel like complete and utter shit. I had assumed, (and I told him so) that he was constantly partying it up in UNCC and all of that, but to my great surprise, he informs me that he's never gotten drunk or anything. And to think that I've done all that I've done in the short amount of time. I've been smashed, had sex, and the whole nine. Done drugs and all of it. And here is someone that I used to admire so much and to find out that he's done none of it is crazy to me. I didn't know what to say. He just seemed so much more capable than me. But in truth, I didn't want to hear anything else he had to say other than his apology. And he told me, and that was what I needed. Maybe not for anyone else, but it was for me specifically. On a side note, I was rather pleased to hear that he still had his Tims from way back in high school and he was wearing them while we were talking (rawr :)) but that's something completely different. Size 12's, bitches!
Well now it's the 29th, and I officially leave the day after tomorrow on a journey that will be sure to be the talk of my life for the next thirty years. In a way I can't wait to see what's coming, but in the other, I'm absolutely terrified of what might possibly be coming that could change the way I see the world forever. I suppose I'm gonna go and make a mass email saying my goodbyes to Pembroke for the time being. That and I have a SHIT load of things to do. It's quite a big list. There's so much that needs to be done, and no time to do it. But then, it's always that way.
I can't believe it. I talked to Trick. I simply can't believe it. He said he really wants to chill with me and invited me to his house in Alabama. But unforetunately, I know now that I can't trust everything that Mister Patrick Stone says out of his mouth, or rather through his keyboard (the email anyone?) so we will have to see.
On a completely opposite note, Jessica and I are threatening to seperate over this Diane issue because she's still ranting and screaming about her money that I supposedly owe her. So I straight up told Jessica how I feel. I told her that the reason I didn't pay Diane was because of the fact that I thought that she had sold my three games in an attempt to get back her money. I told her that there was no point in my paying for anything since Diane already got what she wanted. To which to my complete shock and amaze, Jessica pipes up and chimes in that she does in fact have the video games there with her. Which I frankly couldn't believe. They've been telling me for a month and a week (which is exactly what Jessica said) that they didn't have it, and they didn't know where they were and all of that. And now, out of the blue, the games just jump back into the picture. No lie, it'd be fabulous to have my games back cause I miss Dead or Alive like hell. And Perfect Dark too. But I told her that I had already assumed they were gone. And then she preceeds to tell me off about not being a human shield between myself and Diane, and I told her that she's the only one who answers my calls. Everytime I call that house, Jessica is the only one who responds. So of course, I'm gonna talk to Jessica because Diane acts like she doesn't wanna hear it. I'm sorry that Jessica is taking the brunt of the situation from both sides, but that's what happens one of us screws the other, and it ain't me. So she threatened to stop talking to me or whatever to which I broke the conversation off, because I refuse to stop being friends with her over this Diane issue. I've known her for three years now, compared to the measely 6 months that Diane can claim. If that doesn't count for anything, then quite frankly this was a waste of time and money. According to Jessica, she's going to put the box in the mail tomorrow, which I'm not sure I believe because I don't think that Diane will just let the box leave the house. But we shall see all in the press of time. And on an interesting note, Jessica tells me that Diane will turn me into the police if I don't pay her the 75 dollars before I leave for Germany, which I completely don't believe. You're telling me that Jana and Rock can stay in her house for months not pay a dime, rack up bills over a thousand dollars each, and she brushes them off, and Diane's gonna hound me over 75 dollars? Fuck that. Complete and utter bullshit. But like I said, we shall see. I'd like to see the police fly to Germany to come and arrest me over 75 bucks. That'd be a riot.
Finally to the complete the drama that is WW3, I ran into a complete nutcase on MFF, who was insistant that I was lying to him about my house and my address, my name, my face, and everything else. No matter how many times I attempted to persuade this lunatic, he continued to badger and threaten me and then preceeded to try and get my phone number. That is NOT the way you get a date people! There are better and far more effective ways then coersing someone! True it works, but it's sooo much better to take the nice route. And it's more pleasant too. But apparently, he wasn't about the pleasantries, so he didn't waste anytime. And I didn't either. I finally had to click ignore on his ass. I had had enough. And so now, at 2 am I'm finally hitting the sack to rest my body and rise to start the monumental task waiting for me on that list. Ugghhh..so much work. But the rewards will so pay off. I can't wait. But then again, I can.
For the historic memorabilia for myself, I'm leaving a piece of Trick's conversation on here so I can always read it and weep. Who knows? I might have to call him a liar again real soon. And I need an angle to support my theory.
[23:21] VampireofSanity: But no seriously. And I can't stress this enough. I NEED to know. Did I do something to you to make you dislike me or something? Because you have no idea how crushed I was when I left high school.
[23:21] VampireofSanity: Why do you think I graduated early?
[23:21] VampireofSanity: I couldn't stand to be there.
[23:21] suthnboy10: haha no man you didnt do anything at all to me
[23:22] VampireofSanity: well, the reason I asked is simple.
[23:22] suthnboy10: i just was not all there..i wasnt the person i needed to be..and i am really sorry if i hurt you because that wasnt all my intention..my mind was just somewhere else then where it should have been
[23:23] VampireofSanity: I remember before I left that I had bought you a birthday present and I wanted to give it to you before I left.
[23:23] VampireofSanity: I remembered when we talked that you told me how you liked to write songs on your guitar.
[23:24] VampireofSanity: So I bought you a Songwriter's book that had tips and tricks and the addresses to all the record companies in America and how to reach them if you ever wanted to go public.
[23:24] VampireofSanity: But I remember the day I tried to give it you.
[23:25] VampireofSanity: you totally blew me off.
[23:25] VampireofSanity: And I had no idea why.
[23:25] suthnboy10: i dont remember man but i am really really sorry
[23:25] suthnboy10: and i do appreciate you going out of your way to do that for me
[23:26] VampireofSanity: It's okay. But you have no idea how hurt I was. I mean, I'm literally crying again thinking about it. Let's just say when I got my last yearbook from the school that year, you had quite a few pages dedicated to you about what a liar you turned out to be.
[23:26] VampireofSanity: I was....very...upset.
[23:27] VampireofSanity: but it doesn't matter.
[23:27] suthnboy10: im really sorry dude
[23:28] VampireofSanity: it's alright.
[23:29] VampireofSanity: I didn't mean to burden you with that.
[23:29] VampireofSanity: but I never know when to find you.
[23:29] VampireofSanity: So I figured it was better to get it off my chest now that you're here.
[23:30] suthnboy10: i hear ya ..and i am sorry i really didnt mean to make you feel that way
[23:31] VampireofSanity: ....it's okay... [sigh]
[23:31] VampireofSanity: I feel much better now.
[23:31] suthnboy10: i dont remember much of my last couple years at hs..i was practically married and didnt do much of anything but chill w my gf..which ended up cheatin on me w my best friend and so i was just ready to get away from that situation and off to college and i know in that whole process i hurt a lot of ppl
[23:33] VampireofSanity: I see.
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