Inhale....and HOLD.....

January 16, 2008 - Wednesday

Inhale.....and HOLD..........
Current mood: worried

It is done. I've finally sent off that monsterous piece of work called a graduate application to FIDM. Words cannot express how much I want to go to this school. It's everything to me. I want to be able to do this so bad, that I can practically taste the fabric in my mouth as I'm pinning together dresses or working on a new runway routine. I can't believe that in a few weeks time I could know that I'm going to California for seemingly the rest of my life. it's like a dream that's moving in slow-motion and I haven't gotten to the part where I wake up yet. And yet it is simultaneously yet the longest waiting period in my life that I've had yet. I've never wanted anything this badly before, I don't think. When it came to college, I knew that I could just put in some applications and wait for one of them to produce some results. Grad school isn't like that in that you have to choose the specific one that's right for you and go with it, with the hopes that you're what they're looking for. FIDM is truly the only place I want to go, and I hope and pray that they will look at the materials I've sent them in the light that it could be something that I want for myself. But I won't know anything about what's going on until they decide to call me and reach a decision which I expect could take a while. In the mean time, I've got to find this damn phone....