The Omega Chronicles 3

January 27, 2008 - Sunday

The Omega Chronicles: 3
Current mood: distraught

Okay so as far as I know, this may be the last blog I ever post on this subject. Last night was the final straw and the interviews down in the band room in Moore Hall and boy was it a doozy, so to speak. When I got there, I found out that they were about 15 minutes behind, so they asked everyone to wait in the hall. Coincidentally, everyone was in black and blue which I thought was really interesting, but yeah. So anyway my turn came at about 9:00 and I entered the room totally unaware of what was waiting for me. As usual, they gave off the impending aura of doom that they're so known for, though this time around there wasn't this sense of damnation that they normally have every time you walk in there. I remember rushing Phi Mu Alpha in the Spring of 2007, and that was crucial. You walked in there and they had candles on the floor in triangles and it was very creepy looking, so it was extremely intimidating. This time though, they just had you against the world, so to speak.

Anyway, the moment I got situated, the barrage started. Ryan asked the majority of the questions, I guess since he's the pledge class leader or whatever. And the questions I got asked were quite interesting. Many of which I was not expecting. For example, they asked me about what I knew about the fraternity itself, which I just went to look and surprisingly, I got most of the answers I gave correctly about Ossian Everett Mills and 1898, with 200 chapters and near 200,000 members. I got questions concerning the current state of my hair to which I stated that since I'm trying to grow braids, it has to go long. They asked me how I felt about Efrain and Josh Gay. I wasn't expecting either of these questions, and I have to admit I'm curious as to why they would ask something like that. I'm guessing that could be because they could be my big brothers or something like that. One of the interesting questions I was asked was whether or not I felt like I was extremely accomplished. Now I know what the answer they were looking for was, and I responded with the fact that "No, I didn't feel that way. I've done things that I'm proud of, but I still have a lot left to do in my life." They seemed generally pleased with my answer and kept going on. I also got asked about what I knew about the "situation" in the spring of last year when they almost lost their chapter here at the school due to the bullshit they were pulling behind people's backs. I don't know much, but I told them generally what I knew about the situation, which isn't a whole lot. I was also asked since I'm graduating in May about what I could offer the fraternity as an alumni. My answer I have to admit was pretty good. I admit I haven't thought about that question, but the answer seemed natural to me. I would give the younger brothers actual real world experience into what the real world was like, and since I'm not part of this large gap in age like some of them, I could get closer to them, to allow them to understand better. I was of course asked why I came back, and I said that it was like a personal mission to me before I left the university, which was attacked by the guy on the end who asked me if it was just for the concept of myself or for the brotherhood. I replied that since it was my last semester here at Pembroke, I didn't have time to act like it was for myself, and that I wanted to be involved in something that was bigger than myself outside of the university.

All in all, my answers were good, and I thought they were pleased with the majority of them. In particular, one of the brothers, though I can't remember his name off the bat, told me he was very impressed with the fact that I came back AGAIN this time around, and that he thought I was well-spoken and he was happy I was there. But heart of the matter is this. Phi Mu Alpha is one of those groups where you would feel like everything is okay like you've done everything you've supposed to have done and that you gave them exactly what they wanted. But the truth of the matter is, you never truly know what the fuck is going on back in their minds. I can't tell you how many times I've finished an interview thinking that it was going to be great and then you get that bomb dropped on you via Efrain (the first year, in a side-comment, I may add) or via Matt Blue (the second year) and it hurts really bad. So while I felt that my answers were heartfelt and appropriate to the situation, knowing them, they may just decide they just generally don't like me, and POOF! my chances are gone with the wind, just like that. So now....I really don't know. And I'm really nervous and scared and I don't like waiting in the dark for anything. I like to know what's coming for me, so that way I can prepare accordingly for any challenge ahead. But this is something new entirely. But I'm guessing I'll find out the real honest to god truth this evening, since today is the last of the interviews. God, I hate waiting!!!!