A Last Bit of Advice From "The Gayshia"

So it's Wednesday and the clock is ticking on my time here in Ludwigsburg. I've got six days left here and I'm trying my best to enjoy it. Turns out that Xavier and Kristin are leaving us early and going to stay with the "Sugardaddy" aka Rogerio in Esslingen, so many of us won't see them again. I guess I'm glad that Craig and I live in North Carolina so we can keep in better contact with them. I know for one that I better be in good contact with Craig and Xavier at least, since they both live relatively close to the school and my house. So tonight we had an ERASMUS party, which is like a party for all the International Students at Antonio's house. On that subject, I will not go into other than to say that someone there is a very scandalous and hypocritical bitch who can't keep her hands to herself, and she should learn to control her feelings better in public than to constantly prove to everyone that she's in love again, and that she has to prove that every three minutes. I mean give the man some air to breathe. (B.) So after the party I'm chatting it up with Xavier and Craig and I found out through Xavier's professional diagnosis that Craig has entered into a state of depression due to his homesickness, and that's causing his lack of everything. Personally I don't know whether to believe this, because Craig is the type of person that constantly has to have someone around him that's able to understand his problems. If we couldn't then, he'd have no choice but to deal with it on his own anyway. So yeah.

But I start talking to Xavier and found out the whole scoop on him, and it's not true that he's a pompous asshole who thinks he's better than everyone else. So we sat and chatted and I found out the real scoop that in fact it was just the way that the cards played out and he ended up where he is. I'm glad that I had the talk because it really cleared up a lot of things for me trying to understand that because he's always been somewhat of a mystery. Personally I think that he has the vibe of being a little more special than most, but honestly that's just air, not really the truth. It offered me a glimpse to what other people on the campus don't really get to see. And he's not the only one for whose feelings I've changed for.

Turns out Ray is a pretty cool dude too, not to mention kinda cute in a loveable teddy bear kind of way. In the beginning, I thought he was just a prude who wanted to do nothing but hang with the Germans and do German things, and at first he was on Craig's and I shit list because of it. But honestly, as far as I know, he's not like that. He's funny and intelligent and witty, and compassionate which is far more than what I thought. I guess when you go abroad, you try to find people that are most like you so you can relate better. So since they're both from Pembroke, I guess I just tried to get to know them a little better. And the attention paid off.