Not because I cut people's heads off and absorb their powers via brain matter (though there are a few people who's heads I'd like to cut), but rather because he always seems to be hearing clocks whenever he starts thinking about something too hard and I can hear my own clock ticking as I start piecing together this London trip. It's like already March (I can't believe that. This time last year I was heading to Hollywood-Wednesday would be a year ago- to go to that audition at FIDM) and I can see things turning very slowly as evidence that something is finally going a certain way. True, I still have many things that I need to work out, like what the hell I gonna do with this furniture before I go, exactly how much aid I'm getting so I can plan accordingly, where I'm gonna stay when i get there, how the hell this gas bill's gonna be taken caer of and things like that, but I can see it all coming to an end.
A part of me is kinda upset in that I don't want to feel this upcoming spirit thing again meaning when I left NC I had this idea in my head about how DC was gonna be so great because it wasn't NC and that it was gonna be bigger, and the guys cuter and nicer and more open, and I'm finding that that isn't the case. I know when I went to Europe, I had a lot more experiences there than usual, so I don't want to base my faith off a semester staying there but at least I have already been there once so I have some inkling of what to expect. The people here are just like people anywhere else and I'm finding it hard to cope with that fact especially in the evenings when everything is quiet. Normally I like quiet. But sometimes, I hate the fact that it's too quiet here. That's why I blast my boombox to give me something to listen to because I don't want to hear the thoughts in my head that tell me I could be something right now. Meeting someone, talking to someone, god forbid making love to someone. So I don't focus on that. Instead just try to think about the other things in life. Like this upcoming London trip.
Tick, tock. Tick, tock.
Wednesday 11 February 2009
It May Be Anti-Internet Time!
February 11, 2009 - Wednesday
It may be anti internet time!
Current mood: calm
Okay there so there's a few things to report I suppose just for the sake of keeping a record. I get my response from Canada and they said no in an interesting twist, but that's cool cause it just pushed my decision towards London anyway, so that's fine though it's a little disappointing as that was where I wanted to go really badly. Hmmm well anyway, things at VETS are fine and I'm just working there doing my thing hoping to get into Interior sometime in the near future since I've already told them I may give that up if they take too long. Interestingly, they have me doing the same kind of project I was doing for ODEPE before I left, and I was telling Greg (one of the guys in there) that if this keeps up I may just start my own contracting company with the feds doing advertising and the like for them.
I went to Angel's get-together this past weekend in PG plaza (for her birthday that was last week) well all met to see "He's Just Not That Into You" and I'll get to that in a minute. I was kinda surprise at the kind of company that she keeps, though I'm never one to criticize the company someone keeps unless they directly offend me. A lot of her friends are wheelchair bound, an the one thing that just makes me feel uncomfortable was just being around them. I'm not used to that kind of thing and even one of the guys (Huey) told me I didn't look like a CP person he'd seen. I guess that'a compliment though I didn't recognize the difference. They just all look really sickly and it makes me feel rather uncomfortable. The one guy Michael, he tried to be in everyone's conversation at once, and if what I've heard is true and he's bi or whatever I sincerely hope I get a man before he does. If not, I'll commit suicide. lol
The movie was pretty good (funny at parts) but it was resonating with me on a different level which is why I'm thinking about going black a few days. It's just ridiculous to come home and get on the computer looking for stuff that you already know isn't there. And I do it everday and it's getting on my nerves. It felt great just getting up and heading out somewhere with no particular agenda. I did it again tonight and picked up some Taco Bell and went and saw "Push" which was pretty hot (mmmm Chris Evans made me hard through random parts of the movie....especially those Chucks he had....mmmm fucking boner!) And maybe later in the week I may head down to Dupont and chill at a bar or something. I've been putting it off and I'm tired of it. We'll have to see.
It may be anti internet time!
Current mood: calm
Okay there so there's a few things to report I suppose just for the sake of keeping a record. I get my response from Canada and they said no in an interesting twist, but that's cool cause it just pushed my decision towards London anyway, so that's fine though it's a little disappointing as that was where I wanted to go really badly. Hmmm well anyway, things at VETS are fine and I'm just working there doing my thing hoping to get into Interior sometime in the near future since I've already told them I may give that up if they take too long. Interestingly, they have me doing the same kind of project I was doing for ODEPE before I left, and I was telling Greg (one of the guys in there) that if this keeps up I may just start my own contracting company with the feds doing advertising and the like for them.
I went to Angel's get-together this past weekend in PG plaza (for her birthday that was last week) well all met to see "He's Just Not That Into You" and I'll get to that in a minute. I was kinda surprise at the kind of company that she keeps, though I'm never one to criticize the company someone keeps unless they directly offend me. A lot of her friends are wheelchair bound, an the one thing that just makes me feel uncomfortable was just being around them. I'm not used to that kind of thing and even one of the guys (Huey) told me I didn't look like a CP person he'd seen. I guess that'a compliment though I didn't recognize the difference. They just all look really sickly and it makes me feel rather uncomfortable. The one guy Michael, he tried to be in everyone's conversation at once, and if what I've heard is true and he's bi or whatever I sincerely hope I get a man before he does. If not, I'll commit suicide. lol
The movie was pretty good (funny at parts) but it was resonating with me on a different level which is why I'm thinking about going black a few days. It's just ridiculous to come home and get on the computer looking for stuff that you already know isn't there. And I do it everday and it's getting on my nerves. It felt great just getting up and heading out somewhere with no particular agenda. I did it again tonight and picked up some Taco Bell and went and saw "Push" which was pretty hot (mmmm Chris Evans made me hard through random parts of the movie....especially those Chucks he had....mmmm fucking boner!) And maybe later in the week I may head down to Dupont and chill at a bar or something. I've been putting it off and I'm tired of it. We'll have to see.
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