February 26, 2010 - Friday
Creating a monster Pt. 1
Current mood: horny
Throughout my sexual experiences, I've always pretty much let it be known to people that I'm into what I like sexually in that I have a raging foot fetish for guys and that I get off on it big time. But most of the time, the guys that I deal with say their ok with it, and ignore it completely or just act like it's not a big deal and I feel like I'm wasting my time. Occasionally I'll run into some guys who aren't initially into the idea but when they try it, they find out that they quite like it and want to do it more. I've had this happen twice already with Frank and the guy Ian. And now most recently there's George.
I started talking to him a few days ago and he asked me what I liked so I told him that I get into guys' feet and I love sniffing them and licking their feet and sucking their toes and love having it done back to me (thanks Chris!!) because it feels so great. Well before he was just like another average person just saying the usual of what he likes and all but when I mentioned that, he suddenly changed his whole tune and it was like he became something else completely. Next thing I know, he's like going crazy and getting totally turned on and he must've been so hard that he called my phone manipulating me into phone sex so he could bust a load.
So now he's supposed to come over on Monday and he just wants to have foot sex and so I'm going to give him exactly what he wants. Hopefully he'll come so hard that he'll need a back brace to recover (which would be majorly hot to see) but we shall have to see. This is just part one....
Friday 26 February 2010
February 26, 2010 - Friday
We Interrupt this Message....
Current mood: relaxed
So yeah a quick update with what's happening. Let's see. So first off, I found out what Andrew's deal was finally when after I sent him a 6 page text message at 1 am and he called me at 1:02, I found out what the deal was. He doesn't want a relationship. Though he was spending time here and having sex with me and the whole nine. Well....whatever. His loss. It's a shame though.
I met Simon finally, the other week and he came through and we had dinner and talked. It was nice. And he stayed over and we watched a movie and fell asleep until he had to get up the following morning to leave. So that was interesting. It's sad to say but I was severely mislead by his picture. Not that he's bad looking but in my head there were no such things as unattractive Australians. I should modify that to say there are no such things as younger unattractive Australians as I don't think they age very well. yeah.
I decided to start making moves to find out about this PhD. I'm nervous because I don't know that means in regards to my fiances, as CFNC has already stated that if I have loans out with the school now, it shouldn't be a problem to reissue them if I'm staying around to continue my work. So yeah. I met with a man from the program and he seemed genuinely interested in trying to help me put it together. So that's cool.
I seem to be doing alright in my classes this time around. Just met with Jeff Hilson for my tutorial this week and he's happy about my prospective project with the elements of poetry which is nice. The real shocker of the week came in the form of Liz Clegg's response to my script for her class. She was completely blown away and she just lavished praise all over it and then some. I was like generally speechless for several seconds reading what she wrote. But that's definitely a good sign. I sent her my treatment for my feature film Skin Deep, so hopefully she'll like it and I can get started on a basic skeleton of the work in the near future.
So that's that for now, I guess. I picked up a few new games recently which is good, Dante's Inferno, Heavy Rain, Darksiders, and Demon's Souls all of which are good. So life is okay now. I just need this final check to come in so I can keep it moving. lol.
We Interrupt this Message....
Current mood: relaxed
So yeah a quick update with what's happening. Let's see. So first off, I found out what Andrew's deal was finally when after I sent him a 6 page text message at 1 am and he called me at 1:02, I found out what the deal was. He doesn't want a relationship. Though he was spending time here and having sex with me and the whole nine. Well....whatever. His loss. It's a shame though.
I met Simon finally, the other week and he came through and we had dinner and talked. It was nice. And he stayed over and we watched a movie and fell asleep until he had to get up the following morning to leave. So that was interesting. It's sad to say but I was severely mislead by his picture. Not that he's bad looking but in my head there were no such things as unattractive Australians. I should modify that to say there are no such things as younger unattractive Australians as I don't think they age very well. yeah.
I decided to start making moves to find out about this PhD. I'm nervous because I don't know that means in regards to my fiances, as CFNC has already stated that if I have loans out with the school now, it shouldn't be a problem to reissue them if I'm staying around to continue my work. So yeah. I met with a man from the program and he seemed genuinely interested in trying to help me put it together. So that's cool.
I seem to be doing alright in my classes this time around. Just met with Jeff Hilson for my tutorial this week and he's happy about my prospective project with the elements of poetry which is nice. The real shocker of the week came in the form of Liz Clegg's response to my script for her class. She was completely blown away and she just lavished praise all over it and then some. I was like generally speechless for several seconds reading what she wrote. But that's definitely a good sign. I sent her my treatment for my feature film Skin Deep, so hopefully she'll like it and I can get started on a basic skeleton of the work in the near future.
So that's that for now, I guess. I picked up a few new games recently which is good, Dante's Inferno, Heavy Rain, Darksiders, and Demon's Souls all of which are good. So life is okay now. I just need this final check to come in so I can keep it moving. lol.
Tuesday 16 February 2010
Ugh.
I just have to say I really hate hypocrisy. My fiction teacher Leone, is and was really good at teaching, I'm not saying she isn't. But I don't understand now that my grades have come back from class, why I have the lowest grade in the class second to a person who failed out completely. Especially when I did so much ridiculous work for that class, and it just seems completely pointless. In comparison with someone who barely worked at all and spent all her time running around London at every party with everyone. I'm not saying she isn't good. Natalie is an amazing writer. but in comparison to the fact that I spent so much time cooped up reading books on writing and trying to emulate and make better, and then she just arrives with a piece that was really out there and odd and gets a god-like score. It's disconcerting and really upsetting.
otherwise, life is fine. I'm ready for this semester to be done already and we're only halfway through. It doesn't make me feel good that my teacher and dissertation overseer Elizabeth Clegg is making it sound like our dissertation is going to be utterly impossible. That's not really the way to inspire people into doing good work. but I'll just keep trying to get through it. It's not helping that I'm supposed to have 3 games coming to me sometime but I don't see them or when they'll be here. It'd be nice to bury myself in some Demon's Souls or Assassin's Creed 2 or even...god forbid...Mass Effect 2.
ugh.
otherwise, life is fine. I'm ready for this semester to be done already and we're only halfway through. It doesn't make me feel good that my teacher and dissertation overseer Elizabeth Clegg is making it sound like our dissertation is going to be utterly impossible. That's not really the way to inspire people into doing good work. but I'll just keep trying to get through it. It's not helping that I'm supposed to have 3 games coming to me sometime but I don't see them or when they'll be here. It'd be nice to bury myself in some Demon's Souls or Assassin's Creed 2 or even...god forbid...Mass Effect 2.
ugh.
Tuesday 9 February 2010
It's Raining Men!!! 9 Stories of the Semester
Before anything else: HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! 2010!!!!!! Good that's so crazy. 2000 was 10 years ago. Holy shit. Anyway...
Okay so I know it's been a while, but how should I start this? There's many things I could say about what's been going on since I got here, and what3 has happened since my last post but I think I would rather focus on the guys because that seems to be the biggest thing right now. So where to start? The good news is that since I got here there has been a noticeable upgrade in the men department, much more so than say DC, which isn't saying a whole lot, but in truth, I wasn't doing much searching there. DC was more a respite for me. I mean I was working there and I didn't have a whole lot of time to do a lot of other things. I mean so much so to the point that got that my co-workers were talking about it. That's when I went out and met the awesome 20 something's club. Shame I didn't meet them till right before I was supposed to go. That would've made a big difference. But anyway, it's water under the bridge now. So anyway like I was saying, since I've got here, there as been a big increase in guys that find me interesting, I guess most of them would even go as far as to say attractive, though sometimes I'm not quite sure. I've seen now there at there are men that view men sometimes for more of what I'm not that for what I am. Meaning like fore example, the people that like to see in my in my chair. There's only been a few of them thank God, but still I've met a few who would rather that I stay in my chair that move out of it, because for some reason they see it as hotter or some4thing. I'm not one to begrugde anyone for wanting to do their own thing, but truth be told, that's just odd. I mean I t3e3ll other people about it, and they look at me like I'm crazy. But it's okay. I mean everyone is entitled to do their own thing.
So anyway, yeah I mean I've met a few odd jobs in the past, but most of the guys I see tend to be pretty normal, nice, sexy guys. Most of them. So then. Let's go through the list, shall we? What can I remember from September? Let's see, there was:
1. Sean: He was really nice, the first guy I talked to that wanted to come and meet me, from South London or I should say England. Plae as moonlight with burning fire red hair. lol He told me that people here tned to hate on red-haired people and I've seen it for myself and I don't know why. But it's true for some odd reason. I guess here red headas are like Britain's black. lol. Anyway, he came over and we talked and hung out and he tried to introduce me to central only to be pushed back by the concept that I couldn't take my scooter onto the tube. Of course, back then, I wasn't really ready to go on the buis either, but now I could I could just take the 211 from Hammersmith and be there in 40 minutes. But, we tried.
2. Febian: This cutie Asian guy showed up when I was looking for guys into my fetish. And he was really nice. Just what I needed to get over my hating of the British culture. When I first got here, it was horrible. Everyone hating on everyone and I didn't see how I was supposed to be able to do anything around here let alone actually try and live. But anyway, Febian came and we hung out and played around it was pretty hot, I'll admit. It's a real shame that I haven't seen him again since then but with his calendar he does keep it pretty busy with all of his playmates, so who knows, maybe I'll see him again maybe not.
3. Rafal: This is one guy I keep in contact with. We haven't done anything and I don't think that we will for several reasons. Though he's extremely attractive Rafal has mental issues that keep him from from being like a regular person which is fine but he doesn't like to take his medication so it makes it difficult for me to try and communicate with him. He's a nice guy, Polish and he can sing really well. He comes over quite often ad we just hang out and do whatever. Watch movies or so out to eat or something. Whatever he's in the mood for, which can be just about anything really. With him, you never know. Just like I never know if he'll be wanting to slit his wrists when I call or something. It's like if you miss a phone call from him, he'll threaten to kill himself if you don't return it. But it's okay. I'm just keeping him at arm's length. I consider that a potential bullet dodged.
4. Martin: This was just a short fling. The Czech sexy guy was here for an evening, and we met up because of what he said he liked. Truth be told, when he got here, we ended up not doing anything because apparently I didn't have what he wanted (Nikes) but that's okay I mean even though I had told him this from the beginning it didn't seem to matter. He was just wasting time trying to get back to his boyfriend in Spain, which is where he is now. So I hope he's doing alright.
5. Sven: This guy was great. Shame I only got to meet him once and for a short time. He was on exchange from Stuttgart here in Manchester where he was studying abroad for a program. And so we met up and he is one of the best kissers I've ever had!!! And his sense of touch is am....az....ing.....absolutely. I wish I could've seen him more but such is the way of things. Cute German guy. Ahh well.
6. Ian: This was one of the more recent ones, as he was last Saturday. Interestingly enough, I had been talking ot Ian like over a year ago and didn't even know it. We had been speaking for awhile but he lives in the Caribbean and so he never really thought we would meet. However, I get here to London and his family lives here and he was here over the break, so he figured we should meet up. I agreed, however I should make one small disclaimer. I created a monster in the process. We were talking about things we like sexually and I told him what I was into and so we go to talking about it, and he found that he really liked it, though he knew nothing of the process. And so by the time he got here, apparently that's all he could think about when he was meeting me, and I didn't really want to lead him on as at the time when were first talked about meeting I was seeing John and then by the time he came I was seeing Andrew (more on that below.) But anyway, he came and we had lunch and though I tried dissuade him from the idea, he wouldn't hear of it, and so we ended up doing a little something extra but it wasn't much because I really couldn't stand myself as the thought f being some rich old man's plaything. Which is precisely what was happening for al of 10 minutes. Ugh. Not to say he wasn't nice because he was, but as a 50+ year old, that wasn't my cup of tea. No ma'am.
7. David: I don't really want to go into too much detail about this one, except to say that he found me on a disabled dating website and said hi and thirty minutes into the conversation bought a plane ticket from Madrid (where he lives) to see me in London. So I let him come and visit and that ended up being a mistake. He came and was all over me like white on rice on a paper plate with a glass of milk in a snowstorm, as Major Payne would say. And not in a good way. We went to Central London and that was great for my first time, but it was fucked up by his continual need to be around me and on me every fourteen seconds. Even my night of seeing Avenue Q was ruined by his incessant kissing sprees. Ugh. He stayed for two days and went packing. All I can say for this is bon voyage, seeing as he's French, it's appropriate.
8. John: (geez this is really stacking up. I didn't expect to see it like this till it's on paper or digital or whatever) Now this one is annoying for many reasons. I met John on my fetish website and we started talking and it was amazing. We had the greatest connection ever. I literally talked to him on Skype for seven hours straight. Yeah it was like that. I've never done that with anyone really. Let alone a person that I had just met. So I thought that was the beginning of something grand. As did he. Now as a side note, John had gastric bypass surgery last year and lost 200 pounds over the year (which is great) but as a side-effect he has several pounds of loose skin that surrounds his upper and lower body. Which is to be expected. He was telling me that he hadn't really expected to meet anyone until after his post op surgery to have the skin removed which was New Year's Eve, but obviously I showed up before then. Anyway, he came to get me and I spent the day at his place and we watched Star Trek and ate lunch and just geeked out which was great. Unfortunately, a big ass snow storm came through and ended up trapping me at his place for a week because the roads were super icy and I couldn't get back to London to go home so I stayed with him which we thought was an okay idea. Turned out to be a bad one. Internally, I guess. Over the course of the week, he claims that his feelings for me turned from one of a companion to one of a friend, due in part to the fact that I started off sleeping in his bed to moving to the couch (because it was much, much warmer there and I was freezing every night) and over a scene we had in a restaurant where he told me that he wasn't trying to get into anything serious (which was a drastic change in tone from a few days prior.) Needless to say I was pissed, still am because I feel like a part of me has wasted my time/effort in something that couldn't be worked out and he told me that after he heals from his operation if I was still available only then would he come and seek me out, though at this rate that ain't happening. See entry below.
9. And finally the last person on this list so far (but certainly not the least because there was supposed to be someone else on here but the snow pushed that back) is Andrew. I've been talking to him for quite sometime before we actually decided to meet face to face. I met him online (not at the fetish site) and we were talking and he just seemed like a generally nice guy. We never talked about anything of the usual with the guys there because most of them seem to be only interested in the size of your cock. But we didn't even go into that realm, which was refreshing. I was just frustrated because I would ask him a question and it would take him like a week to get back to me. And I was tired of it. At first, I didn't even know what he looked like because all I could see where his lips but then he unlocked the rest of the picture and he's gorgeous. And has been a model in London Fashion Week and hated every minute which I find highly amusing. I can't even begin to go into everything that's so interesting about him here, that's a topic for another post, but he's just very intriguing and eccentric. Anyway, I met him in Central London and we went for coffee at the museum which was a very proper "date" if you want to say that. And after that I didn't hear from him again really, which is not really true as he calls me every few days to see what's happening but I didn't see him in person till Thursday night when he phoned me saying that all the trains were out and he needed a place to stay and was asking if he could chill with me. So he came over and we hung out with my flatmates and everything and went to bed. He slept on the floor and we talked but by the end of the conversation he was in the bed, and we spent the rest of the night spooning, which was great. I've only done that with three guys. Andrew, Cody, and Frank. And the last two can kiss my mother fucking ass, fucking bastards. Anyway, that morning the spooning turned into something more....intimate shall we say and it was fabuloso. And then he got dressed, cooked me breakfast (scrambled eggs and salmon delicious) and went off to work. It was....perfect. And now, I'm wondering if I'll ever get to do it again or if it was a single magical moment in the history of my life, as such seems to happen every blue moon.
And there you have it. Nine men, nine short stories. I wonder what the next semester will hold?
Okay so I know it's been a while, but how should I start this? There's many things I could say about what's been going on since I got here, and what3 has happened since my last post but I think I would rather focus on the guys because that seems to be the biggest thing right now. So where to start? The good news is that since I got here there has been a noticeable upgrade in the men department, much more so than say DC, which isn't saying a whole lot, but in truth, I wasn't doing much searching there. DC was more a respite for me. I mean I was working there and I didn't have a whole lot of time to do a lot of other things. I mean so much so to the point that got that my co-workers were talking about it. That's when I went out and met the awesome 20 something's club. Shame I didn't meet them till right before I was supposed to go. That would've made a big difference. But anyway, it's water under the bridge now. So anyway like I was saying, since I've got here, there as been a big increase in guys that find me interesting, I guess most of them would even go as far as to say attractive, though sometimes I'm not quite sure. I've seen now there at there are men that view men sometimes for more of what I'm not that for what I am. Meaning like fore example, the people that like to see in my in my chair. There's only been a few of them thank God, but still I've met a few who would rather that I stay in my chair that move out of it, because for some reason they see it as hotter or some4thing. I'm not one to begrugde anyone for wanting to do their own thing, but truth be told, that's just odd. I mean I t3e3ll other people about it, and they look at me like I'm crazy. But it's okay. I mean everyone is entitled to do their own thing.
So anyway, yeah I mean I've met a few odd jobs in the past, but most of the guys I see tend to be pretty normal, nice, sexy guys. Most of them. So then. Let's go through the list, shall we? What can I remember from September? Let's see, there was:
1. Sean: He was really nice, the first guy I talked to that wanted to come and meet me, from South London or I should say England. Plae as moonlight with burning fire red hair. lol He told me that people here tned to hate on red-haired people and I've seen it for myself and I don't know why. But it's true for some odd reason. I guess here red headas are like Britain's black. lol. Anyway, he came over and we talked and hung out and he tried to introduce me to central only to be pushed back by the concept that I couldn't take my scooter onto the tube. Of course, back then, I wasn't really ready to go on the buis either, but now I could I could just take the 211 from Hammersmith and be there in 40 minutes. But, we tried.
2. Febian: This cutie Asian guy showed up when I was looking for guys into my fetish. And he was really nice. Just what I needed to get over my hating of the British culture. When I first got here, it was horrible. Everyone hating on everyone and I didn't see how I was supposed to be able to do anything around here let alone actually try and live. But anyway, Febian came and we hung out and played around it was pretty hot, I'll admit. It's a real shame that I haven't seen him again since then but with his calendar he does keep it pretty busy with all of his playmates, so who knows, maybe I'll see him again maybe not.
3. Rafal: This is one guy I keep in contact with. We haven't done anything and I don't think that we will for several reasons. Though he's extremely attractive Rafal has mental issues that keep him from from being like a regular person which is fine but he doesn't like to take his medication so it makes it difficult for me to try and communicate with him. He's a nice guy, Polish and he can sing really well. He comes over quite often ad we just hang out and do whatever. Watch movies or so out to eat or something. Whatever he's in the mood for, which can be just about anything really. With him, you never know. Just like I never know if he'll be wanting to slit his wrists when I call or something. It's like if you miss a phone call from him, he'll threaten to kill himself if you don't return it. But it's okay. I'm just keeping him at arm's length. I consider that a potential bullet dodged.
4. Martin: This was just a short fling. The Czech sexy guy was here for an evening, and we met up because of what he said he liked. Truth be told, when he got here, we ended up not doing anything because apparently I didn't have what he wanted (Nikes) but that's okay I mean even though I had told him this from the beginning it didn't seem to matter. He was just wasting time trying to get back to his boyfriend in Spain, which is where he is now. So I hope he's doing alright.
5. Sven: This guy was great. Shame I only got to meet him once and for a short time. He was on exchange from Stuttgart here in Manchester where he was studying abroad for a program. And so we met up and he is one of the best kissers I've ever had!!! And his sense of touch is am....az....ing.....absolutely. I wish I could've seen him more but such is the way of things. Cute German guy. Ahh well.
6. Ian: This was one of the more recent ones, as he was last Saturday. Interestingly enough, I had been talking ot Ian like over a year ago and didn't even know it. We had been speaking for awhile but he lives in the Caribbean and so he never really thought we would meet. However, I get here to London and his family lives here and he was here over the break, so he figured we should meet up. I agreed, however I should make one small disclaimer. I created a monster in the process. We were talking about things we like sexually and I told him what I was into and so we go to talking about it, and he found that he really liked it, though he knew nothing of the process. And so by the time he got here, apparently that's all he could think about when he was meeting me, and I didn't really want to lead him on as at the time when were first talked about meeting I was seeing John and then by the time he came I was seeing Andrew (more on that below.) But anyway, he came and we had lunch and though I tried dissuade him from the idea, he wouldn't hear of it, and so we ended up doing a little something extra but it wasn't much because I really couldn't stand myself as the thought f being some rich old man's plaything. Which is precisely what was happening for al of 10 minutes. Ugh. Not to say he wasn't nice because he was, but as a 50+ year old, that wasn't my cup of tea. No ma'am.
7. David: I don't really want to go into too much detail about this one, except to say that he found me on a disabled dating website and said hi and thirty minutes into the conversation bought a plane ticket from Madrid (where he lives) to see me in London. So I let him come and visit and that ended up being a mistake. He came and was all over me like white on rice on a paper plate with a glass of milk in a snowstorm, as Major Payne would say. And not in a good way. We went to Central London and that was great for my first time, but it was fucked up by his continual need to be around me and on me every fourteen seconds. Even my night of seeing Avenue Q was ruined by his incessant kissing sprees. Ugh. He stayed for two days and went packing. All I can say for this is bon voyage, seeing as he's French, it's appropriate.
8. John: (geez this is really stacking up. I didn't expect to see it like this till it's on paper or digital or whatever) Now this one is annoying for many reasons. I met John on my fetish website and we started talking and it was amazing. We had the greatest connection ever. I literally talked to him on Skype for seven hours straight. Yeah it was like that. I've never done that with anyone really. Let alone a person that I had just met. So I thought that was the beginning of something grand. As did he. Now as a side note, John had gastric bypass surgery last year and lost 200 pounds over the year (which is great) but as a side-effect he has several pounds of loose skin that surrounds his upper and lower body. Which is to be expected. He was telling me that he hadn't really expected to meet anyone until after his post op surgery to have the skin removed which was New Year's Eve, but obviously I showed up before then. Anyway, he came to get me and I spent the day at his place and we watched Star Trek and ate lunch and just geeked out which was great. Unfortunately, a big ass snow storm came through and ended up trapping me at his place for a week because the roads were super icy and I couldn't get back to London to go home so I stayed with him which we thought was an okay idea. Turned out to be a bad one. Internally, I guess. Over the course of the week, he claims that his feelings for me turned from one of a companion to one of a friend, due in part to the fact that I started off sleeping in his bed to moving to the couch (because it was much, much warmer there and I was freezing every night) and over a scene we had in a restaurant where he told me that he wasn't trying to get into anything serious (which was a drastic change in tone from a few days prior.) Needless to say I was pissed, still am because I feel like a part of me has wasted my time/effort in something that couldn't be worked out and he told me that after he heals from his operation if I was still available only then would he come and seek me out, though at this rate that ain't happening. See entry below.
9. And finally the last person on this list so far (but certainly not the least because there was supposed to be someone else on here but the snow pushed that back) is Andrew. I've been talking to him for quite sometime before we actually decided to meet face to face. I met him online (not at the fetish site) and we were talking and he just seemed like a generally nice guy. We never talked about anything of the usual with the guys there because most of them seem to be only interested in the size of your cock. But we didn't even go into that realm, which was refreshing. I was just frustrated because I would ask him a question and it would take him like a week to get back to me. And I was tired of it. At first, I didn't even know what he looked like because all I could see where his lips but then he unlocked the rest of the picture and he's gorgeous. And has been a model in London Fashion Week and hated every minute which I find highly amusing. I can't even begin to go into everything that's so interesting about him here, that's a topic for another post, but he's just very intriguing and eccentric. Anyway, I met him in Central London and we went for coffee at the museum which was a very proper "date" if you want to say that. And after that I didn't hear from him again really, which is not really true as he calls me every few days to see what's happening but I didn't see him in person till Thursday night when he phoned me saying that all the trains were out and he needed a place to stay and was asking if he could chill with me. So he came over and we hung out with my flatmates and everything and went to bed. He slept on the floor and we talked but by the end of the conversation he was in the bed, and we spent the rest of the night spooning, which was great. I've only done that with three guys. Andrew, Cody, and Frank. And the last two can kiss my mother fucking ass, fucking bastards. Anyway, that morning the spooning turned into something more....intimate shall we say and it was fabuloso. And then he got dressed, cooked me breakfast (scrambled eggs and salmon delicious) and went off to work. It was....perfect. And now, I'm wondering if I'll ever get to do it again or if it was a single magical moment in the history of my life, as such seems to happen every blue moon.
And there you have it. Nine men, nine short stories. I wonder what the next semester will hold?
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